It seems like only yesterday when we ushered in the new year and now, it's coming to a close, which is, unbelievable! Time certainly travels on swift wings; the clock goes tick-tock, urging us to grab every second it churns up.
This year didn't actually shape up the way I wanted it to be. Many dissapointness and unfillment came and left and I'm counting on those which left. I hate to be pessimistic simply because it dampens my drive to work on something, anything at all. The outcome of my endeavours is always second; the important thing is the knowledge of the instant and personal gratification that I gave whatever I was up against with all I've got.
I was hurt this year, very much so, but with hurt comes heal and I learned another life lesson that if something bad happens, it doesn't have to last. Perspective change provided me with a lot of intrinsic insight. I came to know that pain is necessary to recognize comfort and that it's okay to cry and vent out all the negativities. Freudianslip is indeed self consuming, feeding on confidence and esteem. Wallowing is even worse because I found it pulling me backwards and no one should live life in reverse. I bet no one wants to be Benjamin or Betty Button!!
2011 kept me occupied with the development of new feelings and I basked in them, with all the bliss in the world. I also became imbued with self-discovery. I was able to distinguish my strengths and weaknesses and work on my flaws, striving to be a better person today than I was yesterday. It was somewhat exciting and liberating and I found my place in the world although others claim that my race and distinctions as well as dissimilitudes make me inferior and undeserving. The way I see it, I belong to this country, and I'm a rightful citizen and I'd die fighting for my country. If I don't give a damn, who will?
Intellectually, I have been reading and writing voraciously, both formal and informal. Books are my best friends since I learned to read and so far, the passion of mine has tripled. I tried a new genre of history and The French Revolution and the Medici Family and Marie Antoinette take the crown as far as I am concerned. Napoleon... naah.. too common.
Spiritually, my agnostic nuances began leading to atheism. And, now I'm a self-proclaimed secular humanist/atheist. I don't buy God's existence one bit. I am a steadfast believer in ancient paranormal entities and I'm certain that theists have been worshipping aliens all along and somewhere along the way, branching took place, the birth of numerous sects and denominations, splitting holier than thou faction of mankind and commiting massacres on innocent people arbitrarily to satisfy God. That is what theologies do best, get men kill each other in the name of upholding religion. Atheists don't go around blowing up people. Theists do it and they claim that God is love! Who you're kidding??!!
In all, 2011 enriched my life, chapter by augmenting chapter. I hope I talked less and listened more. I hope I brought a smile to someone's face. I hope I was a good friend to someone who was going through a bad patch. I hope I made someone's day. I hope that I paid forward the good deeds I that received for others in need. I hope I have been a wholesome person. I hope that I made someone wiser. I hope my loved ones know how much I love them and that I can't imagine my life without them.
All said and done for 2011, I hope 2012 would turn out to be itself simply because that is the only thing that is bound to happen! Oooh, before I forget, come utopia or doomsday in 2012, I'll face it with positive atittude! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year people!!!